whatever

2011-01-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

I AM BACK!!

HAHAHA...

My apologies for going missing for the past 2.9 months.

Was super busy..

And...

I was having difficulties coping too..

It's much better now of course.

But there're still more improvements.

I really hope that my results can be good.

Sighs...

In HK now..

It's slightly different here.

Cus I'm much happier.:)

Shall post pictures in my next post.

Don't go okay!

2010-10-16T20:19:00.013+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates!

Was really busy with school.

Mid terms and meetings..

My recess week is totally packed!

But I know I didn't make the wrong decision.

Oh..

A few weeks back, it was my sports ball!:)

And it was..

EXTREMELY FUN!

Theme for Katy: BACK TO SCHOOL!

Never once I was so HIGH.

HAHAHAHAHA..

Alright..

Back to work.:)

Eilllleeeeeeeennnnnnnn!!!!!

Katy guys!

Being hardworking with the MENU.

SUPERSTAR!:)

MUSIC:)

Pageant pageant..

My lovely BL Raphael. NEVER FAIL TO SUPPORT ME ALL THESE WHILE!

Senior MOMO

VM LOVE!

Juniors (excluding Raphael) of 20th main comm!

Ex-VP and Tessa!

Do check up for more updates!

2010-10-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

Will be back soon:)

2010-09-12T12:51:00.015+08:00

UPDATESS!!!!

It's gonna be the 3rd week of school.

Physics is KILLING me.

Ohms Law...

Fd=??

Md=??

I don't deal with such physics in poly.

OMG...

I seriously need help.

I need to clear my doubts by THIS WEEK.

Can't accumulate them..

Well, well...

My dear Peiyi is such a nice lady.

She accompanied me to school on the first day as I know I'll get lost.

Called me during her break as she knows that I'm alone.

Ensuring that I'm not LOST!!

Haha..

Thanks alot my dear:)

~~~~~~~

Sports Bash was held 2 weeks back.

It was GREAT!

Just that I had to leave early as the king is back.

And I had lab the next day at 0830.

I was still staying in the east then.

The game that Kozun suggested was SUPER FUN!

All these made me forget the stress I was facing in school.

I do hope what the rest say is true.

That I'll soon find the syllabus easy.

I really hope so!!

Just the beginning..

Everyone was still "fine"

Here comes the games..Poor Rapheal!!

Music PAGEANT!!:)

SSSSSSSSLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!

Another music PAGEANT!!!:)

Beautiful Marlene and me:)

Starting to get HIGH!

Music GIRLS!!

Katy girls!

Kozun:)

That's Ray and Suyin:)

Yes Eileen. BITE!

KATY! ( Where's Yilong?)

~~~~~~~~

My new toy:)

LOVELY!!

2010-08-19T12:46:00.012+08:00

Alright...

It's time to blog.

My voice just returned.

It went on holiday for more than a week.

~~~~~~

I attended sports camp on the 1st week of the month.

Initially, I wanted to back out.

But after pushing myself to stay for the 7 days,

I changed my view.

Made many new friends through this camp.

From a stranger, to someone who shares your burden.

I fell sick on the 4th day of the camp.

And it was the day where amazing race started.

The guys were really made me teared.

They offered to piggyback me up the stairs, down the slope.

The girls held took turns to hold my hands.

They would turn back and ask if I'm alright almost every min

GLs made sure I hydrate myself whenever we're at a pit-stop.

The 7 days were full of fun and laughters.

No regrets for staying till the last day.

I'm even stronger now.

From strangers..

to a great friend.

Thank you my dear katies!!

2010-07-12T19:19:00.015+08:00

Well...I thought of writing a post on what how I feel.

I am glad for who I am today.

So many things happening after I graduated from secondary school.

My girls were always there despite being busy with schoolwork.

I told them everything except for my health, my diet.

They didn't blame me.

Till today, I feel bad for letting them down.

Especially those empty promises made.

The stupid decision that I made to start dieting caused many to lose trust in me.

On one of those days in the 4th quarter of 2007, I went for an exhibition in school.

And I received a book on the calories in our daily food.

Initially, I just started to count based on our daily needs.

But I tend to chuck the book aside at times as I wanna enjoy my favorite food.

Peanut pancakes were my favorite tea time snack.

Selegie Tau Huay reminds me of those days in SRJC.

So the calories of these food won't affect me.

I started to stand on the weighing scale everyday.

The numbers remained the same. It's not decreasing.

I dislike it.

2007: Before dieting..

So I took out the book and was determined to lose 3kg.

After cutting down on the portion of food and eating more veg and fruits,

I achieved my target.

But looking at the models and artiste on TV and magazines,

I thought I should lose more.

And I'll sure look good.

1-2 months later, everyone said I was thin.

I was happy to hear that.( I guess I was insane)

But I still think that I need to lose more..

My Mum was angry, my Dad was shocked.

Timpani complained on my appearance everyday.

My friends told me to stop.

In my mind, I said I will..

I'll start tomorrow.

But tomorrow will still be tomorrow.

Each day, I'll repeat the same thing..

CNY 2008. I still think that I need to lose a little more..

It was a semester.

Night class started.

The truth was out..

My mum called one day..

I told her I ate.

But she wanted to talk to Valval, Eleen and YW.

And she found out the truth.

Things were bad

The next day, we went to my GP.

I told him I don't wanna be admitted to the hospital.

He said ok..If I were to listen to him.

I promised.

A week later, my weight increased by 1 kg with medication.

Everyone was happy.

But not me..

After 3 weeks,

I couldn't take it..

My weight started to increase.

I was scared..

How could it be..

I'll be overweight if I carry on like this..

I couldn't focus on anything..

My results were bad..

I kept complaining I was cold.

I felt leftout..

I decided to stop seeing my GP.

Of course, no more medication,

my weight decreased.

Yes, I gave up.

Grandma told my mum to bring me to her Chinese Physician.

And I said okay.

The "Good Tessa" keep telling me that I need to be well..

The "Bad Tessa" said my weight will keep increasing and increasing.

My first visit to the Chinese Physician,

I was scared.

It was the first time I felt like this..

He scolded me..

He said if I don't wanna take his medicine, don't bother seeking help for him.

He said my organs were not in a good state.

In other words, I'm dying..

I was sad.. But yet, I was scared..

What if I become super fat?

Why are my friends enjoying food but not me?

Why are my friends staying slim but not me?

Why am I constantly hungry?

I am glad that the people around me changed my thinking.

In school, they accompanied me in eating..

Valval scolded me for my actions at times..

To be frank, I was scared of her, but I know she meant well..

Mimi and Elsie accompanied me for my meals when we were out.

They showed me that eating isn't a sin.

They showed me how to enjoy food.

~~~~~~

As days passed, I was getting better,

It was really tough..

No, VERY VERY TOUGH!

I cried so many times..Over so many things.. Especially having night classes.

There were scoldings..

There were comforts..

There was 1 of those days of the night classes that I will never forget.

I cried in front of YW ..

WH, gave me a pat on my shoulder when I came out with YW..

I know I need to be better.

I can always remember this day.

Everyone lost trust in me..They were too tired..

But I know I will overcome all these..

I will gain the trust..

Till today, I can still remember those days..

But I know I will never let myself go back again..

No matter how..

It'll be the past..

And I'm happy with me today..

Year 2009, I was physically fine..

But the thoughts were still there..

Once again, there were so many things happening..

Being at home or in school..

Thank goodness I started attachment early..

Cousin Vivian hear me out, scolded me for those thoughts that I have at times..

I learnt so much from my job..

~~~~~

I joined Muaythai as i didn't have time to go back to school for training..

That's where I know Wilson..

And I got closer to Marcus and Hafiz..

In the later part of the year, I got to know Mervyn.

They never fail to be there.

And that's where I turned into supper too:)

~~~~~

Finally, we graduated..

We are on our own now.

Some of us will be studying..Some working..

The guys will move on to serve the nation.

But those days will always be remembered.

Especially how they helped me through the toughest time I had..

Tolerating my everything..

And today, I'm perfectly happy with my life..

Busy with work and preparation for school..

Catching up with what i missed for the past 2 years..

The numbers are still in my mind..

They can't be deleted.

But I'm stronger than before:)

I'll cherish everything that I have now..

My health and studies are my priorities.

2010-07-08T19:19:00.005+08:00

I realized that things can be said better in person that text.

Miscommunication is unavoidable.

Life is not that simple afterall...

Beautiful accessories:)

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2010-06-29T21:32:00.004+08:00

The people at bucks never fail to make my day.

I'm going to miss them.

Thanks for the smiling face on daily latte:)

~~~~~~

Looking for accessories to match your dresses?

Well, this online shop here might help.

http://tittlebeadle.wordpress.com/

2010-06-28T21:56:00.010+08:00

No wonder no one is reading..

Haha..

I bet my girlfriends are busy..

As I've said before,

this blog is to let them now how am I doing these days..

That's why we're still so close despite our busy schedules.

Sososososo...

I've been busy with work..

Presentation, brochures..

They are all coming to an end now.

*A sigh of relief"

And..

I'm back for training..

The fall caused me to miss training for 2 whole weeks..

And also the meet-ups.

But I'm getting so much better although it still hurts..

Never mind..

Training is my priority:)

Met up with Wilson, Mervyn and Jasmin on Fri for dinner..

All I can say,

Watami is quite a good restaurant.

Reasonable price too.

~~~~~

Will you look down on someone who doesn't have what you're having?

My answer is NO.

2010-06-15T20:52:00.005+08:00

Celine's Party

It was Celine's 20th Birthday party last Sat.

It was great!

Enjoyed myself to the max..

Thank goodness she likes the present that I got for her..

Took me a long time to decided what to buy as this lady here has everything! (laughs)

A book of cupcakes was what I got for her.

Her muffins & cupcakes are really nice!!!

Even Timpani agrees with me:)

Time for pictures!!

Simply love this picture!

Birthday girl!

The gift a I got her(The smaller one..)

Thanks for the invitation.......You were a great host!

~~~~~~

Shall neglect some issues..

2010-06-06T17:13:00.011+08:00

Hey peeps:)

Time flies..

It's time for our dear friends to enlist...

Although they will be out soon,

there is still something missing...

So we had a so called farewell party held at Valval's place.

Everyone brought something there.

Food to be exact.

We were so full after that..

Chicken wings from Fred was GREAT!

And thumbs up for Valval's sausages..

Muhahhahaha..

But I still like the apple strudel and chewy junior.

Not forgetting white wine!!

Thanks alot Uncle:)

The great view from her place..

Still waiting for all the food to arrive

Just woke up from his sleep. HAHA..

See you guys really soon!!:)

~~~~~

A sigh of relief

It was raining heavily this morning..

I walked over to the nearest mall to buy our early lunch.

While walking down the stairs,

I slipped and fell..

The umbrella was beside me..

And the food was on the floor..

I was shocked..

My back hurts..

Thank goodness my neighbour was crossing the road and came to help me immediately.

An Indian lady rush down to help me too..

Went to the hospital to check on my back afterwhich.. (As my parents were very worried)

I'm fine now:)

Shall be more careful next time.

Time to buy new slippers..

HAHA!!

2010-05-29T18:40:00.002+08:00

Lonely..

I used to think that no one cares about me since no one understands me..

I thought that everything that I'm doing was right

and everyone should thank me for being so considerate.

Thinking back,

What was wrong with me?

My dear friends..

Thanks for everything:)

You know who you are..

This is the space where to let my dear friends know how am I doing:)

Will update more the next time with pictures:):)

Stay tuned..

2010-05-24T06:24:00.004+08:00

It's indeed true that if you miss the chance,

it is rather difficult to turn back.

Be it friends or others..

Mummy always asked me why don't I go try out something different.

I told her sometimes it's better to stay as for now..

Yes,

I didn't regret..

I know that there is a better route for me.

I'm being fair.

I smiled when I saw it happening.

I'm happy I did that.

I'm not selfish..

Never selfish..

I'm proud of myself:)

I'm a fussy person.

My friends know that I'm always busy..

Tell me 2 weeks beforehand if and outing is being planned.

Busy busy...

Part of my time will be allocated to my family, some to training, some for friends..

There only 24 hours a day, 7 days per week.

Working takes up most of the hours..

Little time left.

That's why I cherish what I have now.

Don't you readers agree too???:)

2010-05-18T06:35:00.008+08:00

GRADUATION

Finally, this day is here.

After 3 years of hard work.

3 years of ups and downs.

3 years of learning.

Of course, the happiest thing is the bunch of people that I know.

Howard

Frederick

WeiHao

Valene

Yawee

Teck Seng

Sardi

Thanks for adding so much fun in the last semester.

That was the best moment I had in the 3 years of school.

I wouldn't enjoy myself if you people weren't there.

Mugging at starbucks...

The first time I went prawning till i got scolded.

I'll miss everything..

I'll miss WeiHao's mum's cooking. Especially her baking..

So many things that I'll miss.

Too much to say..

You people lead me to who I am today.

You guys stood beside me when I was down.

You guys didn't questioned when I didn't want to talk about it.

You guys never fail to be there when I needed help.

Thank you!

Huat, thanks for the guides in life.

I hope I didn't disappoint you:)

I'll never forget your words:) You brought me out of my worst moments.

I'll be more positive and take things easily big bro.:)

That's you Eleen.. Your ears were always ready.

Remember to keep you volume down and stay pretty Jas!!

And to Shermaine: Of course I won't forget you:) You were always there when I needed to talk. Thanks for answering my calls in the middle of the night and not rejecting them:)

Finally, one from MuayThai! haha.. Well, that's because his sister was in the same ceremony!

You girls have been great! I'll miss those times that we had..

Your constant reminders..

The laughters that we share from the guys jokes..

Thanks for making this day possible! I'll sure miss those days that we had!

~~~~~~

Of course, my dear girlfriends.

Thank you for not giving up on me despite not keeping to my promises.

Especially you Ms Ho..

Marcus, Hafiz, Wilson, Mervyn, Norman..

Elsie, Felicia, Peiluan..

Thank you!

2010-05-13T20:25:00.004+08:00

Confession:

I've been skipping meals recently..

Breakfast will be less than 300 calories.

Drink only a grande skinny latte for lunch.

An orange/pear for tea.

No carbs or fried food for dinner.

Made my own dessert and freeze it so that it's like ice cream.

It is less than 150 calories.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

GOT YOU READERS!!!!!!:)

I was just being bored..

It's NOT TRUE OKAY!!!:)

I'm doing GREAT!!

I have been eating as though I'm out of food for days..

HAHA!..

okay..

Enough of nonsense.

Time for work.

:):)

2010-05-10T19:40:00.002+08:00

I'm fine eating alone.

But not for EVERY MEAL.

It seems like I'm a princess..

But I'm NOT!

I'm eating dinner alone most of the time.

Not outside, it's at home.

No, I didn't buy food back.

I didn't cook.

Food has been prepared.

And it's being place on the dining table..

Dishes are still warm.

Timpani doesn't eat with me as she comes home only after 8.

Mum prepares the food.

And the reason for her not eating with me is

1) She is feeling warm

2) She wants to watch TV.

Okay..My fault again.

I shouldn't take make a big fuss over it.

Another issue...

I NO LONGER WANT TO BE THE LAST AT DINNER!!!

Yes..

I know she's afraid that I'm hungry.

But..

I CAN BE FULL TOO..

Sorry to say all this but...

I'm very frustrated.

I guess all these anger rises ever since the issue of cars started.

2010-05-10T06:16:00.002+08:00

Another week has passed.

Work has been fine.

Just that I'm learning something new.

Something that I'd never done before.

I'll do my best no matter what.

Too lazy to take pictures this week.

Was busy with work.

Uni?

Well..

I have different views with my Mum and Timpani.

But I've decided.

Hmm..

Whenever the issue of cars is being brought up,

I just can't stop thinking of it.

And there will tend to be an argument.

The fact is,

I still can't accept the decision that my parent made.

Which is not to buy a car.

Even Timpani knows how I feel.

I felt unfair.

I was disappointed.

I feel cheated.

Looking at my friends who goes for supper often but I can't join.

I'm sad over it.

No, don't get me wrong.

I didn't want to join.

That's because it's too inconvenient.

I'm staying in the east.

And many of them live in central and north area.

I don't want to ask them to come down all the way here to fetch me.

But Mum doesn't understand.

She used to ask me why.

But now, she doesn't as she knows that the issue of car is being brought up again.

I'm still angry, still sad.

Yes,

Tears welled up whenever I think about this....

And I know this won't end........

2010-05-09T12:58:00.001+08:00

FUMING!!!

2010-05-02T12:59:00.002+08:00

This week is kind of hectic but fun:)

Went to watch IronMan 2 with my poly clique..

The show was rather..

Never mind..

Haha..

Life has been the same..

I've somehow made the decision on the universities.

But can someone save me from travelling for 2 hours??

Don't feel like staying the the hostel.

There're things bugging me these days..

I need to take things slowly.

Long time since i last experience things..

Maybe i should take up more activities to keep time occupied.

~~~~~

Last training with Peter. Take care my friend:(

2010-04-24T18:07:00.003+08:00

I'm back:)

Too lazy to blog last week.

Oops!!!

Well, things are going on well..

Had a MuayThai Demo last Saturday.

It was good:)

But kind of disappointed that none of my family members were there to watch.

It was different from BQD..

And they assume it's the same.

Sighs...

I was hoping that they could be there.

Life has been great.

Fats a building up.

OMG!

I need to EXERCISE MORE!!!

The weather isn't friendly these days.

And this also affects my mood.

Ohohohoh..

I want BUFFET!:)

And you see...

How to cut down the amount of fats?????

I have a super sweet tooth..

That's even worse.

HAHA!

Went to Gusttimo for ice cream yesterday..

It's good:)

But certain flavors are ......Forget it..

Haha..

I've been thinking about the past these days..

And I realized that there are many important people who are added into my life now.

I'm very happy that they have become part of my life..

A simple text from them can brighten up my day.

And SOME people whom I know that are not worth my time to IMPROVING the friendship.

Well, why bother if THEY are always taking things for granted right?

Hmm...

Shopping shall be my next task.

I need to add new stuffs to my make-up kit..

Buy more dresses and tops for work...

Plus plus plus..

Have more high tea sessions..

Awwww...

Can I live a life like a Tai Tai?

If that's the case, I need to LOOK FOR A RICH GUY!!

SUPER RICH!!!

CAPABLE!

SMART!

TALL!!!!!!!

Okay...Enough of all rubbish..

Shall stop here now..

Tell you peeps more about certain things next time:)

Pictures from Muaythai Demo:

My best buddy cum ice cream khaki..

Dearest:)

2010-04-11T20:00:00.004+08:00

Hey there:)

This week is kind of tiring..

OT has been my new friend..

(Laughs)

Meet up with my poly clique on Friday for dinner:)

Dine in at Sukiya.

It was Good..

The beef was GREAT!

But all came out once I reached home.

Sighs...

But i still enjoyed myself the entire night.

The first meet-up of the month.

Where should we go next month?

Haha..

Looking forward to it now:)

Well..

Shall start to plan for my outing with my girlfriends.

Darlings..

Give me so suggestions alright??

The beginning...

2010-04-04T12:41:00.004+08:00

Another week just passed.

Everything remains as per normal.

Working, gym, training..

But there's an extra day for me to rest this week:]

With this public holiday, there was more time for me to catch some sleep.

Many of you should know that I sleep late in the night and wake up early in the morning.

Well..There is a reason for this.

Valval, I know you'll say it's studies..

Haha..

But that was like 2 years back?

Eversince the last sem,

TV is the one that made me stay up late till midnight.

Dramas...MTVs...

Aww.....

So it's worth my sleeping hours:]

Ice cream Ice cream Ice cream..

Yoghurt yoghurt yohurt...

And Ms HoHoHo...

I believe you'll be HAPPY to hear this..

My eating habits are back..

I now eat 1 bowl of rice for dinner:]

And not forgetting desserts and snacks.

Thank you..

I am now the good old me.

HAHA!!!

Buffet soon alright?

~~~~~~~~

Shopping...

Kind of good to work in the central..

The boutiques there are on sale!!

50% off..

Say hello to my new clothes!!

Tired of all the pastries these days..

Hopefully I can be sick of ice cream..

Then I can start on my dieting plans.

But i guess it'll be a few years later then.

HAHA!

~~~~~~

Okay..Enough of rubbish..

Some updates (as promised)

Had dinner for the award presentation on Thursday.

Finally, our hard work paid off:]

Good job everyone!!!

It was really fantastic..

Especially the catching up session..

Oops..Time to go..

I need to TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN!!!:]

Chaos~!

A snapshot in with Joanne:)

Smile!

2010-03-28T19:22:00.004+08:00

My whole body was aching yesterday.

My head seemed as though it was spinning.

And I still went out to meet my babes and headed to other places till late in the night.

When I got home , I was totally beaten down by the pain.

My legs weren't behaving too..

They seemed as though they were gonna break soon.

Thank goodness I visited the doctor in the morning..

The medication did helped.

Just realized that my blog has lesser words these days.

Shall write more and post more pictures.

I need to make good use of my camera!!:]

Life has been GOOD.

Training.

Working.

Gym.

Chilling out.

Watching TV:]

I love it..

Shall add more interesting stuffs to my life!

(Laughs)

Missing my girlfriends and ex-colleagues..

I need to MEET-UP with them soon.

But my schedule seems so packed.

My life isn't that boring afterall..

I have learnt to enjoy life.

Especially when I'm out with Gorgeous and Precious.

Awwww...

I need to shop..

That's the loving couple whom I envy now:]

~~~~~~

I will work hard to get this beautiful baby here.

No longer having high hopes as I feel like a FOOL!

2010-03-20T16:40:00.002+08:00

Recently, I have been busy with work.

This job isn't one that gives me good money each month.

Neither an easy job.

But I'm happy with it as I'm learning something new each day.

I don't hate it.

I like it.

It made me realize that I am not one that can sit for 8 hours a day.

I need to find a job that's 50% outdoor and 50 % admin.

Nono..Not gonna do sales (unless there's no choice)

Dressing up everyday for work is such an enjoyable thing to do.

It's also a reason for me to buy new dresses and tops without scoldings from Mummy.

Nothing much to update after the DnD.

Everything is still the same.

Wait a min..

There's something new..

Haha..

I went to fitness first for their trial.

SO TEMPTED TO JOIN!!!!!

Love their BodyJam class.

SO COOL!!!!

Still thinking of it.

Should I join?

I really want to..

But it isn't cheap.

And my parents are not gonna pay for it.

Joining = Less shopping.

Less shopping = Fewer clothes.

Fewer clothes= ?????

Can I have both and not one?

Haha..

Missing my Darlings..

Supposed to meet up but I GOT WORK!

Awwwwwwwwwwwwww...

Ms Ho Ho Ho Ho Ho!!!

HAHA!!

Fully agree:]

~~~~~~~~~~~

Mummy and I have different views toward some things these days.

And she's assuming my thoughts again.

Hate it..

I hate it...

I want peace..

2010-03-14T00:24:00.014+08:00

Grad night..:]

Fun and memorable..

Too many pictures to upload the pictures here..

Check out my facebook for all the pictures taken:]

Here is goes...

BIG BIG SMILE!!!:]

P.S: Feel like signing up for california or fitness first to tone up!:] But.....I need sponsors..Sighs..

2010-03-07T19:07:00.002+08:00

Empty promises..

False hope..

That's what you taught me.

Don't blame me for being rude.

You taught me all these.

2010-03-06T01:54:00.000+08:00

OMG... I'm done with exams and all:]

Waiting for results..

For those who know me for years, I'm worried worried worried.

Something which I cannot change.

I just returned from a long coffee session with one of my colleagues.

And I found out things about myself.

Like again..

HAHA..

But it's good though:]

Work has been fine..

Everything has been good.

I can see that i'm not far from the great Tessa that i know:]

OMG..So weird.

2010-03-03T22:38:00.007+08:00

CNY ( I know it's abit late but these are the latest pictures:))

DAY 1

Well..Not many pictures taken..

All I can say..it's a normal day..

While waiting for my sister to get ready. She's EXTREMELY BUSY!

DAY 2

I'm always free on this day.

So this year, I headed to Mr Goh's place.

But before that, went to Yawee's place to wait for her to get ready..

2nd Bro andTessa

Waiting..

~~~

Headed over to Gorgeous Elsie's place in the evening:]

Had SO MUCH FUN!!!!

Thank you my dear:]

She's so gonna kill me is she sees this.

2010-02-24T19:54:00.002+08:00

Suddenly, i thought of the past..

Those days in secondary school.

Where I eat like without even thinking of the calories or fats.

I made sure that I eat till I'm full.

Duck rice...

Chocolate milk tea..

Snickers..

My all time favorite malay stall..

I'll always queue for it..

Till the Auntie knows what i want..

Rice with fried chilli potato (double up) and a samble egg.

Nothing was on my mind.

And my maths teacher will bake oreo cheesecake frequently.

I''ll always have at least one slice:]

Recently, I realized some things happening again.

I started to have some stupid thinking.

To be honest.

I counted recently.

I know I'm not going to fall back.

I know I want to continue to lead a healthy life.

Thank goodness I didn't restrict myself from eating.

Yes. I still keep away from certain food.

Those that I used to enjoy.

I've seen girls who're just like the 08 Tessa.

I feel sad for them.

And I swear I never want to return to that time.

Thank goodness darling Peiyi has been somehow "waking" me up.

In school, Valval will be the one who will remind me.

And I know I need to set a good example.

To those who are recovering.

And my darling Ms Ho Pei Yi,

Thank you!!!!

You're always there whenever I needed you.

I'll not disappoint you.

Definitely.

I'm progressing well:]

2010 WILL be a good year.

2010-02-12T22:14:00.009+08:00

Everyone around me is busy baking..

I'm so tempted to bake too:)

Went to get the ingredients to make Cornflake cookies earlier today..

And it SUCCEEDED!!!:)

Cream the Butter and Sugar...

Add in the Flour and Cornflakes..

It's baking...need to be patient..

The product:] Doesn't look good but it taste good:)

~~~~~~~

I'm FREAKING PISSED with my sister. (As usual)

Simply asked her to try the cornflake cookies that I bake,

she said, " You baked them? Anorexic again?"

MIND YOUR WORDS!!

SHE has been so IRRITATING for the PAST 2 DAYS!

Supposed to shop for heels yesterday at Orchard but she was SO SELFISH.

Started off with Wisma, and proceeded to ION.

She took more than an hour to shop between Zara and Newlook.

Like HELLO!!!! You're not the only one shopping!!

Showed her the heels that I wanted..

She said, " Nah..It's not nice. Looks so cheapo"

Guess what, she got herself a pair of pumps from the same shop.

Not forgetting a new top .

As for me,

I've got NONE!

8.30pm and we haven't had our dinner.

She still wanted to get her jeans from LEVIS.

Thank goodness she didn't.

Went over to Far East Plaza as she recommended the Wan Ton Mee..

It was packed but some had finished.

She refused to wait and asked me to shop around first.

When we got back to the shop after some time,

the shop owner said only left with W0n Ton and the noodles..

No Char Siew, no vegetables..

I was so reluctant to dine in there..

Told her that I'll order the wonton soup for myself..

She made a big fuss over it.

HEY IT'S MY CHOICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She is NOT HELPING OUT IN ANY CHORES AT HOME!!!

MAKING NEGATIVE COMMENTS ABOUT ME..

She's GETTING ON MY NERVES!!!!

ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!!

Since Crystal Jade isl full house tomorrow,

we have to think of somewhere else..

and she said it's either we eat mac tomorrow or Sunday.

Hey...

STOP BEING SELFISH!

Oh..

I'm to be blamed again huh..

Right..

Blame me then..

Cus she's always right..

She 's an UNI grad and I'm not..

FINE!!!

STOP TELLING ME TO CHOOSE THE COURSES THAT I DISLIKE IN !

I DON'T HAVE ANY INTEREST IN THEM AT ALL!!

It'll NOT DO ME GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ranting and ranting..

Feeling so much better now..

Hopefully things will get better..

Shall begin my daily run tomorrow!!:]

YIPPPPEEEE!!!

2010-02-11T08:52:00.002+08:00

3 more papers and I'm done..

Come on Tessa!!

2010-02-07T19:44:00.002+08:00

I'm selfish.

I'm stubborn.

But I just can't help it.

Training..Shopping.

Daddy gives me almost everything.

But there's something that I've yet to receive.

Many told me it's unnecessary.

Am I wrong?

2010-02-02T18:31:00.010+08:00

A quick update:]

Will be having my common test this 2 weeks.

Praying hard that everything goes well:]

School has been good.

But shopping has been bad!!!!:(

Relying on blogshops now.

Hopefully there'll be more clothes added to my wardrobe by this week:]

~~~~~~

Last Sunday was Cousin Vivian's 21st Birthday Party.

It was FUN!!

Met up with many relatives and friends.

And yeah..

May all her wishes come true:]

Alright..

Will update after common test.

By the way, do tag me to share any blogshops links;]

And...

If you have a sweet tooth, do visit the link below:]!!

http://thebakerina.wordpress.com/

Thank you!!

2010-01-17T12:15:00.002+08:00

A tiring week..

And I couldn't focus in lectures.

Oh no...

Hate this feeling..

All I have in mind is to watch TV.

Pictures will be uploaded in the next post.

2010-01-05T23:04:00.018+08:00

07/01/2010 (Thursday)

Mummy cooked noodles for dinner.

I transferred 1/4 of my share into my Sister's bowl.

Ate less than 5 spoons of noodles.

The rest went into the nice plastic bag:]

It tasted like instant noodles but mummy claims that it's the usual egg noodles from the supermarket.

Ya..I'm fussy but just couldn't force it down.

Gonna finish up the remaining ice cream in the tub:]

ARRGGGHHH..

04/01/2010 (Monday)

After 2 weeks of break, it's time to return to school.

Went to fetch Mummy from Airport in the evening.

Well.. Our main objective was to dine in at Crystal Jade. LOL.

Taken by Valval:)

My gift:]

03/01/2010(Sunday)

Met up with Charles for dinner to pass him some stuffs.

We used to be of the same height when we were young.

But now.

He is SO MUCH TALLER.

I'm so gonna wear my heels instead of flats when I meet him in a few weeks time.

And come to think of it,

We are friends for 19 years!

No..It's coming 20 years of friendship.:)

HAHA!

Enough of those smiles..

Charles and Me:]

1st entry in 2010

2010-01-02T18:07:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone:]

This is my first entry in year 2010.

How did your spend the first day of the year?

I hope all of you had fun like I did. (smiles)

My new year resolutions?

For me to know and for you to find out.

HAHA!!

Okay..

I'm feeling bored now.

Timpani's friends came over for MJ.

As all of you should know, I don't know how to play MJ. (Yes, I've yet to learn)

Had a headache last night..

I guess I know what caused it.

First time!!!!!

(Laughs)

Lesson learnt: There's a limit when you drink!

No pictures yet as I'm too lazy to bring my camera out.

School is starting on Monday..

Oh ya..My insomnia is gone!!!:):):)

I sleep for long hours during this holidays.

YYYYYIIIIIIIIIPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Will upload some pictures soon yeah:)

Stay tuned!

2009-12-31T15:57:00.005+08:00

Hey peeps:]

I'm still halfway through my ISLP Viva manuscripts that need to be submitted on Monday.

Arrghhh!!

Better get them done fast.

Hungry Hungry..

Can anyone help me buy some food and send them to my place?

Preferably ice cream, scones, waffles, scramble eggs,cheesecake..

HAHA!!

So it's the last day of Year 2009.

(Laughs)

Well..

It is a good and a bad year.

Hmmm..

Good as I met so many wonderful people.

Especially during those days of my internship.

Bad as some things happened..

But I'll take it as a lesson:)

So it's good after all..

HAHA!!!

Time to say GOODBYE to 2009.

A year where I gained so much in life.

7 hours ++ to go..

I'll spend this time wisely:)

To my Lovely Girlfriends: 7 years of friendship is coming:) And 11 years for you KW!

Have fun peeps!

End this year happily with your love ones:)

2009-12-29T19:55:00.002+08:00

How was Christmas?

Fun!!

Thank you for all the presents:]

No pictures taken as I didn't bring my camera out.

Will blog again soon..

Tessa loves December.

2009-12-22T23:56:00.002+08:00

Time for the endless alcoholic drinks:)

2009-12-20T13:30:00.001+08:00

To All:

I hereby apologize for making everyone worried for the past few weeks.

Let alone keeping everything to myself, thinking that it'll do everyone good.

I'm glad to say that everything is over now.

I'm perfectly fine:)

Thanks for constantly being there my dear friends.

Don't worry,

I promise not to keep things to myself again.

And I'll never break any of my promises.

I hope you guys will trust and believe me this very last time.

Thank you.

2009-12-19T01:02:00.002+08:00

I hate it when I get scolded over such a small matter.

Hello, you're in your 20s. Please THINK before you even say a word.

Things can be solved. Why make a big fuss over it?

So what if Mummy sides you?

I have my rights.

I respect you but it seems that you take it for granted.

You are OLDER but don't think I need to do whatever you say.

STOP saying that it's unfair when I buy things that you didn't have at my age.

I paid them by MYSELF and NOT TAKING MONEY FROM MUMMY!

Lastly, STOP ASSUMING THINGS!

Pissed me off at such an hour.

If you want me to do things your way, sorry but I won't.

I helped you as to AVOID arguments.

You're not the only one who needs to wake up early to work.

I have to go to school too!

Complaining is all that you have.

I had enough.

Don't make me use force on you.

STOP making negative comments about my friends.

STOP BEING SELFISH!

You aren't that great after all.

You are NOT PERFECT!

2009-12-18T22:50:00.003+08:00

I shall put my notes aside for the time being.

~~~~~

Went to Taka earlier on.

Bvlgari Omina gift is $100.

OMG.

I'm so tempted to buy it for myself.

But I need to control my spending.

Sighs..

~~~~~

Ms Ho......

Kaiwei......

Nicole....

2009-12-07T20:48:00.006+08:00

07/12/2009( Monday)

Done with 2 tests. Left with 4.

My mind went blank.

I need to stay calm.

Focus.

It'll be over soon.

~~~~~~~

06/12/2009 (Sunday)

Accompanied my sister to the airport.

She went to get her perfume there.

Burberry Brit Sheer.

The one that I've been eyeing on.

And she bought it before me.

I kind of regretted not buying it a few months back.

Aaarrrrgggghhhh!!

Dine in at Swensens (T2) for dinner.

It was a good one (besides those memories rewinding)

The free gift

As usual, the phone is stick to her ear.

~~~~~~

Valval said I look sad these days.

All I can say is that I failed in hiding this time.

I need to look happy.

I need to be happy.

I'm sorry if I pissed anyone off for having that sulky look.

I need to be strong and move on.

Sorry to say this but it hurts..

2009-11-27T22:34:00.009+08:00

26/11/2009

After so long...

I finally made time for a movie!!

Paranormal Activity

The movie was...

Well, did not turn out as what I expected.

(Laughs)

A long day for me.

Was damn tired when I reached home.

I need my license..

Thunder Tea Leaf Rice

TUTU KUEH!!

PuTien

Jasmine and Wilson

Mervyn and Tessa

My camera is too lousy to capture the picture of the flyers:(

~~~~~

I need to face reality.

But I hate this feeling.

It happened right in front of me.

I was wrong.

I shouldn't pretend to be strong.

I don't blame you.

because you're unaware of how I feel after all.

2009-11-23T20:23:00.003+08:00

I'm disappointed with myself.

That isn't my real smile.

2009-11-21T17:28:00.002+08:00

Had 2 tests this week.

I hope all went well.

There'll be more in the coming weeks.

At least I'll be busy.

More time being occupied.

No more shopping.

But I need to make time for movies.

Tessa, move on.

2009-11-20T19:51:00.001+08:00

It has been raining for days.

I need the sun.

It's freaking cold..

2009-11-14T20:58:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I last saw my girlfriends.

How are you girls doing?

Don't worry, I'm fine.

I promised to be strong. Remember?

Sorry Ms Ho, I still can't forget what happened.

I'll move on with life.

It isn't easy.

I'm trying my best.

I laughed so much these days.

Which reminded me of those days in SRJC.

I guess you girls must be really happy to see this right:]

But there's something missing.

I realised that I wasn't really enjoying in the end.

I thought of certain things after those laughters.

Well, you girls should know what I had in mind at that time.

Sorry for thinking of that.

But I just couldn't help it.

I kept myself busy each day.

School from Monday to Saturday.

Sunday is for Muay Thai.

I thought it would help.

But when I came home today, I couldn't focus again.

I know I should be thinking of the upcoming tests instead.

But again, I can't control.

Sorry darlings.

But don't worry, I'm doing well on over all.

This post is for you girls.

Despite being unable to meet-up due to our busy schedules,

at least we know what is going on.

And we will be less worried too:)

I'm glad work has been good for you Kaiwei.

To Nicole: Busy putting up Hello Kitty decorations for Christmas?:)

WORK HARD Ms Ho!!! Chill out after your exams alright!

Take care girls!

You're being missed:)

2009-11-13T18:27:00.011+08:00

11/11/2009

Went for the Tea Party in the afternoon.

So much fun and laughters.

All thanks to Ms Jasmine Cheong for making the day:]

Let the pictures do the talking...

~~~~~~~

* P.S Yes my dear..I will think of you instead:) Thanks for being there despite not being in Singapore

2009-11-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

I couldn't stop laughing today.

It was just like those days in SRJC..

2009-11-07T21:27:00.008+08:00

07/11/2009

Went on a date with my LOVELY LADIES:]

After my lesson, headed over to Elsie's place.

It was so nice of her to pick me up from Novena.

After such a LONG time, I finally meet my dearest MURPHY.

I miss him so much..

Didn't take any pictures with him as he was busy walking around the house.

He's really SO CUTE!!

My dearest..I'll meet you often alright:]

I always feel so comfortable at Elsie's place.

Oh ya..Jessie came over and brush against my feet .

She wants my attention too!

HAHA!

Went to meet PeiLuan in a while .

Shopped around and Ms Tay got herself an expensive gift:]

Mummy will definitely nag at me if I were to buy that.

And my allowance will be gone from then.

But I'm really tempted to buy!

Oh no..

Should I??

High tea session as usual.

And once again, PeiLuan was being made fun by us:]

Wonder time that we had.

We must meet up at least once a month alright?:)

And here are the pictures...

While waiting for Ms Tay LC

My lovely ladies:]

2009-11-06T21:03:00.005+08:00

Night out at Ice3 cafe.

It was really good.

Especially the ambience.

Not forgetting the fun that we had there.

I couldn't stop laughing the whole time.

Yummy mudpie. (recommended by Marcus)

Don't you dare to do that!;]

Marcus and Tessa

~~~~~

Don't worry Ms Ho,

I'm doing fine now.

I'm determined to face everything.

I can't guarantee that I won't think about all.

But I will do my best.

Definitely.

This is my promise to you girls.

I will focus and not be affected.

~~~~~

All of them gave me the same answer and reacted in the same way.

Face it Tessa.

Don't be caught up in denial.

Tessa deserves to be happier.

Just like those fun that she had these days.

Am I right?

~~~~~

My family